Raining...

C came to the showroom with her other half yesterday… while I was shifting some customer’s car… I guess she and her other half is as stunted and shocked as me that we meet this way.

Had a funny taste in my mouth… No, I did not throw up with blood but rather I have bite myself accidentally on my lip… I guess it was C who have broke the tense with a smile, and it really took me back to what it seem to be yesterday… C did you know you still move me like you did, when you read me with your eyes?

“DO I really have to say just how much I love and need you?” Just when I thought I was doing all right sleeping away half of the night… My mood was so shitty that I went out for a spin to nowhere last mid-night after a phone call around 2am and the more I “spin” the more “fcuked” I felt...

Anyway I end up sleeping in the car and thank God, I somehow manage to found my sorry @$$ back in the office reporting to work…

C, Are your legs tired? Because you have been running though my mind all day…

“Why? Why? Why must it be me?” people used to ask, but in this case it’s “Why? Why? Why is it not me that you have choose to spend the rest of your life with?”

AGRRR… Just when I beginning to believe the bull sh1t that I was telling myself that I can live my life without you, Just when I had most of my broken heart put back together to make a new start…

C, did you know that so dear that I loved you that all death I could endure, but without you life is no life and meaning to me? Guess, “The hardest thing to do is to watch the one I love, loving somebody else…”

I went up to a 25th floor of a HDB flat this evening, and to be true I think I would have ended it there and then, once and for all if not for the flat owner who appear suddenly asking me why and what my sorry @$$ is doing outside his flat?

Sheepish, I left hurriedly after telling him that I was looking at “life” in another angle… Damn since when I have become so lamed? C, if the only way I could be with you is in my dreams, then I will sleep forever and refuse to wake up…

A friend of mine while on our way to dinner after work today told me that I should let it out in tears or I should seek “help” before I go Cuckoo…



There is a saying, “The fish told water “ I can’t see my tears because I am in the water…” Water reply “I can feel your tears because you’re in my heart”
Dude… I’m not crying not because I can’t cry, But rather I’m not crying because I have not more tears to cried out”

Haiz... Guess It's Nat Kind Cole's CD and the PC with me till dawn this time round.