C, you used to be my angel (If angels are supposed to be good then why did you break my heart?) Now you are my devil

Man, what the hell is wrong with me? Suddenly I realized I am still not over you yet... everyday I put on a brave front and tell myself that I am happy for who I am, what I am, and I can live my life happily without you...

But I guess I was wrong, Well the truth is you have been running though my mind all this time ... I'm thinking of you when I eat, sleep, work and even when I am behind the close door of the washroom,And it's like my life is in a mess...

Did you know nowadays I always wake up from bed with a sense of Deja-vu? That's because I keep having dreams about all the time and all the places we used to spent and visit together...

Did you know even if the sea ran dry, and turned to dust there's this place in my heart where your fingerprints rest, your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo?

Did you know even if the sun refused to rise, and shine anymore you still move me like you did always?

Did you know even if the years take away every memory that I have, I will still remember the love and time we used to share?

Did you know that I was nearly knocked down by a taxi today while crossing the road because I'm busy thinking of you? Well, I guess I don't mind sleeping forever if the only way I could be with you is in my dreams. Guess I have been kidding myself all this while... how I wish I can turn back the hands of the clock and re-live the time that we share together...

Sometime I can't help but asked if love is so painful and tortures me so why do I still love? What is it all I search for in life? This pain, this agony? What is it all I long for? This torture, this powerful death of self?

This Love has taken it's toll and this heart of mine refused to be hurt again...

Just when I thought I was doing all right... Just when I had most of my broken heart put back together to make a new start...Now I had to forget starting over for I'm still not over you

I guess I did not realized until now that I have and carry so much hate in me for I love you more than myself...

I pray to God that all this shit will come to end real fast, for I feared this sorry A$$ of mine may end up in some funny farm if is shit keeps going on.

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I guess age is really catching up on me. I used to be able to replace power window lifter within half an hour but today when I try to replace 1 lifter for a car I can't believe that I actually took more that 1 hour to finish the job, and the best part is I got cut while changing the part... now I am starting to get worried... very, very worried...

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I was dragging my sorry A$$ back to the office when K.T sees me like he saw some stupid idiot, "S, come buy 2 of this, coupons for some lucky draw..." he got pissed when I told him I got better use for the $20... haiz why when it comes to AWS And increment the management act very "blur" but when I act very blur to this coupons thing the management got so worked up? by the way I maybe not that "smart" but I am not that "stupid" either...

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A.T was pissed when my customer, choose to talk to me instead of her, I told her it does not matter who the customer wants to talks to but it is more important that the customer choose to buy from us, I mean why take it so hard and think so much? at the end of the day the most important thing is that we manage to close the deal, and not worrying about who the hell the customer wants to talk to? the way she behave really left me thinking am I dealing with a 6 years old little girl...