Raining...

我愿于你消磨一生,无奈生命如此短暂.



I got up today feeling very “Blue” Monday blues on a Sunday? I guess must be the show I’ve watch yesterday, the late night pub session I had with the sales people last night and the heavy rain today...

Many time I thought I have let the passed behind me and I no longer think about C any more… but every time I watch any movie or go to the KTV the pass never fail to come back to me and every time the details are getting clear and stronger.

All the things we use to do all the places we used to visit… I just can’t help myself but to keep doing what we used to do, keep visiting these places we used to visit to remind myself all the good time we used to spent together.

until I think I got a “wake up” call from God one day while attending a Sunday service with B.G one of our ex-salesman, telling me that I should stop living in the pass and let you go… As what I did is not for the love of you, but because of the hate I have inside my heart. C, did you know I nearly freak out for I never know that I have so much hate inside of me because of my love for you?

I starts to shutting myself out by diving myself into work, I report to office early in the morning and only returning to home late after office hours. I even stop watching movies, TV and stop visiting KTV so as not to be reminded anything about you.

But last night after holding myself for so long, I can’t hold back myself finally and I let my hair down last night.

It has been 5 years since you left, and just as I thought that I can start my life afresh as I have forgotten all about you, Just as I thought that I can check out of this heart break hotel walking tall, I can forget about starting again for you have never left my heart before…