Raining…

How many of you people out there had been hurt in some kind of love affair? How many times do you swear that you'll never love again? How many lonely, sleepless nights you had, how many lies, how many fights? Would you put yourselves through all that again?

I guess love is pain, and love has a cruel and bitter way off paying people back for all the faith that they ever had in their life…

C, now I am walking on an endless turning stairway climbs thinking of you; I shed another million tears while doing so… I can walk a million roads, over coming a million fears, followed by a million years of uncertainty, do a million rights, and a million wrongs in this balance of time. Just to be with you again…

C, I still love you, I may be numberless, I may be ignorant… but I've kept this single faith, and one belief…and that is I still love you…

Eternities unsaid, I went to bed… I dream of rain and the gardens in the desert sand and I wake up today in vain… I dream of our love as time runs through my hand… I dream of fire…and those dreams that tie our two hearts that will never die…

C, No sweet perfume would torture me more than yours, I lift my gaze to the empty skies above and close my eyes to your perfume… This memory hidden in my heart and soul, this perfume of yours is my sweet intoxication of love…

I sat down and wrote this letter telling you that I felt better; since you've gone and I was free I'm so happy… I have so little time to spare now, for I have so many things to do, so many dreams to fulfil...

I signed my name as if I meant it and sealed it with a kiss and sent it the letter headed through my mood, happy in my solitude

But halfway I changed my tune, when I saw my lonely room and the mirror caught my eye and when I sat down and I cried, I had to intercept that letter telling you that I was better I raced to catch the postman's van, He was leaving as I ran I missed the bus, I end up walking in the rain then came a big dog chased me down the street…

Feeling sorry for myself and wishing I was someone else I walked across the road because I couldn't stand your pity, How could it be that when I needed you the most? I never want to feel so sad and lost again…

The place you live looks opulent and obviously a higher rent than a cosy little room, your landlord says you're out of town, but your new boyfriend's always around, the hour was getting late so I sit down and wait

Then who comes upon the scene but your new boyfriend, Mr.XXX, I ran for cover, now I can only curse my fate It hasn’t been the best of days I'd like to fly away

These memories never sleep… sometime I really wonder why our love turned out this way? I never could find a place to hide so I wore this mask to hide my scars… What could I do but just run and run and run…

The moon is like a fingernail and slowly sinking, another day has begins and now You were my compass, my northern star… Now I lost my way for you are not here with me anymore…

Last night I was looking through our photo album and I see a picture of you smiling at me, I still recall all the good times we shared when we were still together…

Now the pictures that you left behind are just memories, some of them made me laugh, some of them made me cry… I could be walking down the street and see many new faces. But I will always remember that same old smile that I've been thinking of all day…

After the rain has fallen, tears washed my eyes, thunder’s spoken, lighting bolt’s been hurled, and after all the dreams have been broken, C, my love for you still remain unchanged…

This heart is bleeding, but you can't see its blood, it’s nothing but some feelings that this old heart kicked up... It's been raining in me since you left me, now I'm drowning in the flood. I've always been a fighter but without you… I'm lost...

I guess I must confess: I still love you…

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I went to body centre to collect a car that I sent for polishing this morning, only to find out the car at 1500hrs as agree with the polisher is yet to ready… Basket I spend another hour waiting for the car only to find out that the owner is only coming for the car tomorrow… Shit… what’s the rush for?